I'm so confused

Am I mature enough to handle this? What is maturity at the first place? What is expected behavior of a mature human being? Should I be mature or am I already mature.
If I am mature then shouldn't I grow more mature to handle this soggy situation. I cant decide whether I should talk or not? Whether I should give it a damn or not? Whether I should care or not? Whether I should still keep running or not?

Unanswered questions and unquestioned answers!

I think I am mature enough to handle this coz I hadnled this in a beautiful manner, but then even plastic breaks at the point of elasticity. I was forced to reach beyod the break point and I broke apart. Amazingly I collected myself again and again for hundred times, at least and then I was again broke and then I again held myself.

Maturity demands resilience, I guess. And I have this quality.

Every time you commit a mistake, same one, all over again and again and then when I speak up, you end up saying "theres nothing to shout!" But this happens every time, time and again, each and every day.

If maturity means closing eyes to everything then I may not be mature. And I wont be ever.

For me maturity means smiling even if you have hatred for me and blah blah. For you it means somethign else!

How can you expect the sweetness to return when you live with someone else 24x7. Do you expect some magic? If you expect then let me tell you theres nothing called magic here.

Birds of same feather flock together. Aint it? It is indeed. You have got some one of same feathers as you are. Flock together! Oh, Sorry, you already are :)
I thought we are of same feathers, but then one of us shed his/her feathers. You say its me, I say its you.

This leads to a vicious circle :)

Just a request to him, Why have you mentioned in your Orkut profile that "Its better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved". You have won all over. You were deemed to win, even before you started playing Idiot. Coz someone was always playing for you. I guess you must be having that level of maturity! See, same feathers philosophy leads me to this conclusion. So can I expect you to remove that from your profile?

And then people suppose me to pull out! Ridiculous, f***ing ridiculous.

You have got brilliant people in your work place an most of them are your new good friends. And you love being with them and expecially him.

I sont when I will grow to leave you completely. See this leads me to the fact that I am not that mature to leave it all behind in the dust. But then dont worry I wont start with someone else. I am not hungry for some parameters, mine was true love.

I know i will meet you years later on that expressway in US, where he and you will be driving (obviusly) and bump me from behind. And then I will see you with him and you will see me with none.

God bless you. Indirectly he is also blessed, nonetheless unwillingly

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